Why
I came to psychoanalysis.
It started seven years ago.
I started a more intensive traditional therapeutic route.
I went through CBT and DBT first as far as therapy and I found, you know, it helped me get out of bed.
but I realized that in time that I couldn't exist in the living room.
I found it to be tethered to ideological American traits that I find to be very condescending.
I think a lot of the theories they offered for our emotional lives are incredibly condescending.
I think that in my experience psychoanalysis has offered a more complex practice, a lifelong practice, for examining things that are complicated.
I also think that it is dignifying.
I don't feel that it's perfect. I think that it has the potential to be cult-like. I think there are problematic people in the space.
But I think that I can find contemporaries that I agree with, that I can engage with and, and find community in. It feels like the kind of therapeutic space that I can continue to engage with.
It feels nice to stop seeking, in a way, and to work with what I have.
It's also, I think a way to, a safe way to practice magic—and I really don't care to define what that means to me yet.
I think that you could also say that it is a way of practicing power, engaging with power, engaging with curiosity and intellect and soma and intimacy and the sacred space of remediation.
I think that, you know, I have a glimpse only through the analyst I'm working with.
So I don't know how much of that is dependent on the person I'm working with,
but I, I can work with it.
I think I can do what I need to do in the world, creatively and clinically, in this modality.
So, and my answer will undoubtedly change over time.
So ask again in five minutes, right?
